This morning a little bit street 5am I was faced with the choice of whether or not to wake up and study the scriptures. I had written up to nurse Sariah at 4:30am. And last night I didn't get to bed until 10:30pm because I had stayed yo an extra hours prepared the registration documents for the new semester at our commonwealth. Plus I still had a slight headache. I didn't want to burn the candle at both ends.
Red flag: I was starting to come up with multiple excuses not to do something.
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I have felt strongly that I needed to journal or blog. But I kept getting hung up with what to talk about.
So I asked God what is so important that I need to be willing to take the time necessary to record it?
Well I received that answer. ***
Spiritual impressions and answers to prayers.
I have been given the weakness of disorder which is causing imbalance in my life. So I have been praying to know how to fix it. You see, I am a pile maker. Which gives my stress because of all the visual clutter.
In addition, I have not trained my children to stay off of the counters. (Another weakness or manifestation of laziness.) So when my two year old climbs all over receipts and documents and unintentionally knocks them into the sink they tend to get wet and ruined. Which then leads to more stress and anxiety and negative self talk about how I should have taught him to stay off of the counters => which then leads to more anxiety and stress. I had to make a skill set to get out of this cycle, otherwise I feel out of control and start yelling.
My skill set looks like this: I have to STOP myself before I spiral out of control. Then I have REPLACE those thoughts. I instantly plea "Heavenly Father, Help Me". Or "I Need Help". By PRAYING, the spirit is invited. To show my sincerity and willingness to ACT, I turn on a CD of hymns or children's songs to INVITE the spirit because I am too weak and proud to start singing! (However, I have a greater appreciation and understand for why the pioneers needed to sing as they walked and walked and walked.) Singing is another one of my weaknesses, which is why I go to choir. And because my Dad went to choir.
(It believe it is true that a deceased family member can have more influence over you when they are beyond the veil. The temple called to tell my Dad that he had been approved to become a temple worker just before he died. This made such an impact on me that after my mission I became a temple worker. Because I can be indecisive, I became both an ordinance worker and an office worker.) :)
As I side note, one time I had an amazing spiritual experience when I did choose to sing, I was so overwhelmed I couldn't ends goo turn a CD on. And I prayed to know what sing to sing. My go to song is usually I Am a Child of God.
I started singing Teach me to Walk in the Light, over and over until the spirit was strongly present. I knew that I needed to SUBMIT to God's will indict for a change of heart to happen. The words are so powerful and require humility to say they sincerely.
Lyrics:
1. Teach me to walk in the light of his love;
Teach me to pray to my Father above;
Teach me to know of the things that are right;
Teach me, teach me to walk in the light.
2. Come, little child, and together we'll learn
Of his commandments, that we may return
Home to his presence, to live in his sight--
Always, always to walk in the light.
3. Father in Heaven, we thank thee this day
For loving guidance to show us the way.
Grateful, we praise thee with songs of delight!
Gladly, gladly we'll walk in the light.
(Text and music: Clara W. McMaster, 1904-1997 (c) 1958 IRI)
So then all of this led to a huge answer to prayer which I had to tell Cami all about, because she is in the trenches with me!
Dearest Cami,
This morning I prayed to know if I should study my lesson or continue my study from yesterday in regards to family history because I really wanted to do that instead of plan my lesson.
I have been praying to know what is most important to teach Wyatt, and whether I should focus on reading and math?
Yesterday I felt inspired to study Malachi 5:4-5. I was pondering about who appeared to Joseph Smith in the Kirtland temple. Moses (Keys of the gathering of Israel) since this is the topic of my lesson on Sunday, Elias (Keys of Anraham) and Elijah (Keys of the sealing power). I wanted to know the why Malachi prophesied Elijah would come. So I was looking up Malachi and Elijah in the bible dictionary.
This morning when I went to my scriptures there were still open and I still hadn't found Elijah. They were open to the bible dictionary defining education.
I was floored! Right there was a tender mercy, an answer to my prayer about what to teach Wyatt.
Duty rather than fear or reward.
The whole purpose of Education was religious. Nothing was regarded as worth learning except as it ilustrated scripture. At home bible stories were probably taught, butthe regular course at school began with the first 7 chapters of Leviticus (outwards acts required), the 1st 5 books of the O. T., the Prophets, the remainder of the O T school.
They needed knowledge of duties & privileges. (Pamela Openshaw Romney mentioned this at a recent HS conference on the Constitution.
They used object lessons and monuments as aids.
Repeated references in Psalms and Proverbs have educational flair.
All the ceremonies and rituals in the Law of Moses & Gospel of Jesus Christ are designed for an educational function through their symbolism. (Tresta Neil must have read this definition!)
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